Turns out I wasted a bunch of time... I am definitely not gay. Since then, I've had crushes on a whole variety of guys. The jock, the nerd, the brooding bad boy, the nice guy, the gay guy (don't ya hate it when it turns out that way?)...
Anyway, I'd always known I was straight but once puberty fully kicked in and I was into guys because it was chemical and not because it was socially expected, I confirmed it for myself.
The reason I bring this up today is because there's this guy at a local restaurant who works the bar and I'm totally in love with him. He's there every time I go to the restaurant and he's adorable and cheerful and just all-around nice. Obviously he has to be nice (and flirty) 'cause he's a waiter, but I've seen him talking to his coworkers and he's the same way. Now obviously I'm not thinking about him in terms of a prospective romance, he's in his early twenties and I've got limits age-difference wise. Plus the likelihood that a guy like him is single is zero to none. But I was talking to my dad (let's clarify that I'm a totally Daddy's girl), and mentioned it in passing because he's never gonna talk to this guy. When I'm explaining why I would never go for him, my dad says "Well, he can't be that much older than you." This will stand true as one of the biggest "dot dot dot" moments in my teenage life. It takes my dad a few minutes to realize he's just encouraged his 17-year-old daughter to go after a college boy in his early-to-mid twenties.
So apparently hot bartender boy just sent my hormones for a ride because I was watching Red Dwarf tonight (hello, I'm your friend Ubergeek.), and the last guy who I would ever find attractive on the the show (well, second to last, maybe... I'm not about to fall for an android), Rimmer (played by Chris Barrie), just looked so sexy to me. There's something about him being all in black and taking on a looser personality...
He's just so sexy in this episode, I can't even explain.
In other aspects of my life, my drama teacher has finally decided that our class could do a production, thank God. I was starting to get a wee bit scared. We're doing a medley of Edgar Allan Poe short stories and I'm so excited. I'm stage manager which means I run everything which is TERRIFYING but just so amazing at the same time.
I have the second job interview of my life tomorrow. I'm up for a cashier job at my local grocery store. It's a good a first job as any and I really hope I get it. I just need to not get nervous and not get freaked out from my potential boss's seemingly upright personality. Wish me luck.
Major assignments completed: 6
Days 'til my second SAT: 19
Weight lost: 19 pounds
In other aspects of my life, my drama teacher has finally decided that our class could do a production, thank God. I was starting to get a wee bit scared. We're doing a medley of Edgar Allan Poe short stories and I'm so excited. I'm stage manager which means I run everything which is TERRIFYING but just so amazing at the same time.
I have the second job interview of my life tomorrow. I'm up for a cashier job at my local grocery store. It's a good a first job as any and I really hope I get it. I just need to not get nervous and not get freaked out from my potential boss's seemingly upright personality. Wish me luck.
Major assignments completed: 6
Days 'til my second SAT: 19
Weight lost: 19 pounds
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